Sunday Scribblings ~ Simple

I wish I was more inspired by this week’s Sunday Scribblings challenge. But, as I have already stated, i’m not very good with simplicity. The truth is I’m complicated all over. I just turned out that way, due to severe parenting mistakes (as much as I can assess).

Then again, I can clearly see all advantages of simplicity. I strive to get closer. I have my little moments, brief but memorable. A couple of nights ago, I woke up at 3.00 a.m. feeling completely rested. After turning in bed for a while, I got up and got on the mat. I love the darkness and quietness of nighttime. Just plain dark and quiet, nothing to distract me, nothing to worry about, nothing to DO. I went through my routine with eyes closed, breathing, taking long breaks in relaxing poses. It felt very different from what it feels like in the mornings.

Right now I’m really complicated on the inside. There are old wounds I need to cope with, because I’m becoming sick and tired with them. There are new challenges everyday life poses. There are choices to be made, possibilities to be considered, responsibilities to be taken. It’s all running around in my head, waiting to be solved, refusing to be postponed.

And then, there are things to make it bearable. To keep me sane and coping. My mat is only one of them. Bach Flower Remedies are another.

• Agrimony: This Essence helps those who appear carefree and humorous, but actually they hide behind a mask to hide their anxieties, worries and inner pain and fears. They dislike being alone and are very sociable, seeking company as a distraction. Agrimony helps them express their pain, fears and worries; their cheerfulness will come from within, instead of covering up pain and worries.

• Centaury: This Essence is for those who can’t say “no.” They let themselves be imposed on and even bullied by others. For example, if your boss knows that you have to leave early on Wednesdays, to pick up your daughter from soccer, but every Wednesday you boss has something you need to have done before you leave and you always end up staying longer and therefore always shows up late after your daughter’s soccer is over. Centaury helps you say “not today, I need to pick up my daughter. Any other day is okay but not on Wednesdays.” Centaury will help you stay in touch with your own wishes and you will be able to express and defend your own opinions.

• Clematis: This Essence helps when you loose interest in the present. You have difficulty in concentrating, due to a tendency to daydream rather than lack of innate ability. Clematis helps you get a lively interest in the world around you and in life.

• Hornbeam: This Essence helps when you have the “Monday morning feeling” all week. The weariness is rather mental than physical and it is difficult to face the day’s work. Procrastinating is often as result of the mental imbalance.

• Wild Oat: This Essence helps when you feel uncertain as to which direction to take in life, such as, choosing a career, you have reached a cross-road in life and are completely undecided as to what way to go. Wild Oat helps you get a clear picture of what to do in life, with positive idea and ambitions, and the ability to decide upon one’s true path.

Then, I have friends. People who walk the park with me all day long. Such who listen. Such who bother reading what I write. Such who can sit with me in silence.

There is beauty, too, which helps.

And Zencast. As a special gift for zazazu today, ’cause she loves Thich Nhat Hanh.

There are many books on keepin’ things simple, but what eventually really helps, is your own experience. It’s training your senses to be aware of the details. Holding on to the small things, appreciating them. And accepting every helping hand you can get.

(more sunday scribblings here)

This turned out to be a confusing post. On simplicity.