Now or Never ~ A Matter of Priorities

Good morning, everyone

Yesterday at Now or Never I read about Kirsten’s 5:45 a.m. blues and it hit me hard with questions about my own life.

For the last year, I’ve been pretty much on my own, deciding when to go to sleep, when to wake up, what to do throughout the day. I had deadlines to consider, but I would spend a great amount of time on procrastinating and then rush myself to complete my tasks last-minute. It’s always worked for me that way. I put things off, until I no longer can and than use the adrenaline push to see through with them. Which leaves me pretty exhausted, but in 26 years I have found no other way to handle stuff.

But now there will be huge change, not only in my daily routine and the responsibility coming with it, but also in the effort required and the shortfall of my own private time for things like meditation, yoga, seeing friends or spending quality time with the darling man. Reading Kirsten’s post I realized part of my worries are caused by the anticipation of change and how I would handle it, what I would have to give up or sacrifice.

As up to now, if I didn’t feel like yoga or meditation practice (or just couldn’t make myself do it), I would always take the back-door exit and tell myself, okay then, I’ll do it later/tomorrow/first thing in the morning. And, eventually, I would really do it tomorrow or the day after.

But starting next Wednesday, I know I will need my practice to keep me safe and sane. Internship is like the limbo, if not hell itself. You are the youngest, so you get to do all the holiday shifts, as many night-shifts, as they can bestow upon you and you are always on call. Then, everyone gets to choose their vacation first, and you take what time is left.

So, if practice was optional until now, I pretty much know I will need it desperately in future. Motivation is part of the problem. Bed-time at 9? Really? This is how I reacted to Kirsten’s post. I like staying up late, doing nothing. Bed-time at 9 sounds like deliberate solitary confinement to me. But then again, that’s airs and graces, no? It’s a matter of priorities, my teacher would say and I would focus on my toe-caps and bite my lips.

As from next Wednesday, I’ll need to get up at 6 a.m. in order to be there at 7:30 with a clear mind and a body awake. So when do the yoga? Get up at 5:00 for an hour of yoga? Or do the yoga after work and meditate in the morning? How will I manage not to fall asleep? How will I bring up the motivation not to hit the snooze? Will I have any time left for private life?

Kirsten was gracious enough to write a whole post on How to Change Your Sleep Schedule. It might be useful for you as well, so drop by and give it a look. There is great advice and I am aware, now it’s pretty much up to me to give it a go.

I got up at 7:15 this morning and although I really, really intended to go to the park for my routine,  yeah… I ended up doing restorative poses and relaxation at home. Restorative poses are such a treat, but don’t you feel like you’re cheating? Like, it’s not really yoga, just a nicer form of lying around doing nothing? Awww… It’s still pretty cool outside, I think I’ll grab my mat and go

Have a great weekend, y’all!