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Entries from January 2008

Mayan Astrology

January 14, 2008 · 2 Comments

White Magnetic World-Bridger

That’s me according to Mayan Astrology.  Just an excerpt.

In this life-time you are being asked to release and surrender. Surrender is the opposite of giving up. It is freeing yourself from the desire to be in control, letting go of how you think things should be. Surrender is freedom. You are being invited to release yourself from the bondage of preconceived action, to let everything be all right as it is, so that you can live a more inspired life in the moment!

You are being asked to take action in the process of surrender and release. You are requested to die a symbolic death, to surrender your limiting beliefs. Symbolic death unveils the self by cutting away the outgrown parts of yourself that no longer serve you. In such death, ego structures fall away to reveal the garden of the true self. Look for new ways of being, new people, new ideas, and new directions that will move into the vacuum created through surrender and release. Like yeast, surrender enlivens and empowers you to experience more of life’s fullness.

Holding on to past patterns and grievances only limits the possibilities. Forgive yourself. Forgive others. Let go. Surrender whatever limits you. Face whatever you are resisting. In the experience of any loss, it is never too late to complete. Through your willingness to walk in the dark forest, insights and revelations will naturally emerge.

Yeah, who would have thought that  ;)

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Categories: astrology · soul repair garage · spirituality

What is wrong with me?

January 3, 2008 · 3 Comments

Apart from the obvious. Can anyone tell me why I’ve been obsessively reading every word on miscarriage, stillbirth and any other possible pregnancy disaster ever published out here on the Internet? It’s like those horror movies you get hooked up and can’t look away, but you wonder why you started watching in the first place.

And then I go negotiating with God, like this is not going to happen to me, right? 
And then I start playing in my head all kind of dramatic scenarios, which make me burst into tears.  And then I go all, I’m sorry for being so stupid, please don’t make me jinx it, dear Universe, I don’t really mean it.

Awww. This probably requires a longer post with much more background, but I don’t feel like it. Just wanted to get it off my mind.

But this feels so out of control.

Categories: babies · depression · fears · health · pregnancy